Today was one of those liberating days for me. I don’t think much people get to read my blog but I hope if you do, you’ll get something out of it.
Most of the time, when I hear confronting truths, i do my usual self-pity moments & suffer all day long. But I think I have somehow (in my own little way) managed my emotions this time. The truth was said, i went in my room to pray (and of course, cried my heart out, which is pretty much me) & slept. Then I woke up, took a shower & moved on…
I don’t know where to go from here. I was praying to God telling Him to please say something, please tell me where to step my foot next, because I absolutely don’t know where to go from here. But as my mentor said, Hang in there, keep the faith, be steadfast. So that’s what I’m doing for now. AND of course, continuous intentional improvement. I need to make changes to be better, not worst. I know this moment of Another Truth is a challenge BUT an opportunity at the same time – to make things right, to keep moving forward, to completely surrender to the God who knows things much more than I do.
Dear Jesus, forgive me. Heal me. Restore me. Those little places I excuse. Those same old things that trip me up. The pride that keeps me thinking it’s someone else’s fault. The busyness that makes me forget to stop and consider my ways- my thoughts- my actions. You, Messiah are the best match for my mess. In Your Holy Name, Amen. (This is from Lysa Terkeust’s post. I am quoting it because this is exactly what my heart is crying out.)
Anyway, got to go sleep now. I hope you’re having a much better day than mine. Have an amazing week, friend. I am praying for the same thing.